Where in the world is Esther Greenwood?

Where in the world is Esther Greenwood? When i pose this question I mean not physically but mentally. Here thoughts are all over the place throughout the book. Its interesting how she reacts to the way people perceive her when they know that she tried to kill herself. She finds it peculiar and is almost angry taht people think shes crazy that she tried to commit suicide. This would only come from an author who later kills herself (which makes sense that she doesnt think that thought of suicide is pedestrian). This also brings me much interest in how the author makes it sound so passionate and profound of Esther to share her feelings in poem, while the authoer, herself, is too depicting her feelings in her writing. I was very intrested to see if Esthers feelings were normal of people who try to kill themselves and wonder if the author had these same feelings allowing her to write about them so vividly.